The PERFECT note

I am returning this book I’ve borrowed.

I have yet to finish it.

I’ve decided to end it, here

A bland chapter with no great significance

Nor twist or cliffhangers

Baffling, it might seem.

You told me, that I had to go on, simply because the best bits are always yet to come.

That if I held on long enough, the story might take a great unexpected turn

You told me, that everything happens for a reason

By fragmented understanding of its’ narratives and glimpse of only its’ covers, you could somehow easily tell, that this might be worthwhile

You told me, that I needed to stay optimistic, as these pages will one day unfold to me, that “everything’s going to be okay”

It must have been that the lights were too dimmed, or the tea was slightly cold, and perhaps I’ve sat on the wrong spot

Or maybe, it was you.

Your constant need of fulfilling your selfish ego, hoping to prove to me, yourself and everyone else that you, could possibly be the righteous hero of this pathetic tale

Your pretentious kindness of sugarcoating the truth, forcefully thinking that your un-idealistic reality fits right between these lines.

Your stubborn demands for sympathy, desperately seeking for a well rounded desirable, packaged satisfaction of a happy ending -

Unapologetically, I will not give you that.

Please, don’t be mistaken.

I, have always loved reading.

And this book has brought me into an exciting world of which entirely wrecked and defied my sanity. It has been a great pleasure and joy of meeting each and every character, observe as they come and go, feel their presence layer themselves underneath my skin, every word and gesture pumped through my veins, experience hurricanes of raw emotions, ultimately, giving this body an immersive taste of sweet chaos.

However

In a daze, I often daydreamed the moment I’d place this dusty book back on its’ shelf.

I’ve realized I am no longer fond of this book anymore, that I’ve wasted too many quiet nights, stuck alone reading empty chapters and drifting words. This book has lost its’ value for me. And slowly , I knew that it was time, for me to allow this restless soul to finally, find peace.

And of course, I pray, you do too.

• If only you have read this book.